One hell of an emotional ride...

One that I hope I will not have to take for a long time. Never have I experienced so many emotions in a three-day period. I'll keep it short for my sanity's (and your) sake.

Saturday. Emotion: happiness.
One of my best pals got married. It was a small, intimate ceremony and quite beautiful. My hubby & I got to dance and drink and enjoyed the company of people we hadn't seen in quite a long time. The hubby even got a bit tipsy.

Sunday. Emotion: worry.
Moe's youngest son developed RSV and had been rushed to the hospital on Friday. I couldn't just sit and wait to hear something from Moe over the phone. I had to be there. I called her sister and made the trip to Dallas with her & Moco in record time. When we finally saw Moe, I knew we had made the right choice to drive up. Moe, her sister and I were able to do what "sisters" do - talk, laugh and cry all at the same time.

Monday. Emotion: worry. guilt. grief.
Moe's baby was eventually transferred to ICU and that's when I had to make the heartbreaking decision to leave my best friend and head home with the kid after all he did have school the next day. I didn't want to but something in my gut told I should.

On the way home, I pray and text family members asking them to remember Moe's family in their prayers. When I finally arrive home, I call my parents to let them know that Moco & I have arrived safely. Here's what I would like call the "sucker punch" to my day...my parents deliver the news that my sister had just miscarried her baby earlier in the day. I fell to my knees crying. I listened to my parents as they continued to tell me how my sister & husband were handling it. I just heard babble...because in my mind I just couldn't make sense of it all. I felt guilt for not being there for her. I felt sadness for her and her husband.

I didn't know what to feel. I was an emotional wreck. I found consulation in my hubby and son, and even my dog Woxy (who kept nuzzling me when I was crying). I knew in my heart that things happen for a reason. God will take care of those in whom trust him. And yet nothing in this world that's worth having comes easy...but for some reason, I felt like I have paid my dues for a while.

Random quote

Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.

Random Quote - computers

Robert Orben - "To err is human - and to blame it on a computer is even more so.

2008 will be missed...

This time last year we were meeting Moco for the first time. Wondering if we were going to make a good impression at our first meeting. Wondering if we were cut out to be the parents to a then 7-year-old boy who had lived in 13 foster homes since the age of 2. Wondering if he would love us the way we imagined he would. What a way to begin 2008.

As each month passed, we became more of a family. The hubby and I learned more about one another in a few months than in 9 years of marriage. It's amazing what the addition of a child will do to a couple. We became stronger and more unified in making decisions - heck, we had to back up whatever the other parent said/did. We truly began to value our time alone together...and still do. ;)

There was no greater joy than when the judge finalized our adoption of Moco by saying "from here and until the rest of this boy's life...you will be his forever parents. No matter what you go through together, [as she turns to look at the hubby] you will be his dad and you [as she turns her gaze to me] will be his mom until the end of time."

The rest of the year was filled with family and holiday experiences. From our first time trick-or-treating to seeing Moco open a multide of Christmas presents just for him, no event was ever done just for him. We finally saw him realize that we loved him more than he could imagine.

2008 will be one of the best years we've ever had. Yet, as I sit here remembering the past...I can only imagine how awesome 2009 will be. :)

Happy New Year everyone!

See Mango Run!

For those of you who won't be able to join me at the San Antonio Rock 'n' Roll Marathon tomorrow, you can track me here: http://www.liveraceresults.com/liveelite/

Just type my name and voila! Kind of reminds of me of the "dot races" at the Spurs and hockey games...without the dots.

Here's been my motto for my entire training: "I have competed well; I have finished the race; I have kept the faith." 2Tim4:7

50 things...

50 unknown facts about Barack Obama...not too political, just interesting - http://tinyurl.com/5jx5sq

Check it out.

9:30 p.m.

It's a Friday evening and everyone in the house is asleep. Even the dogs and cats. I'm the only person who is still awake. Crazy. I feel like I should watch a chick flick or something, but I don't have any worth watching. bleh.

However, I am watching "Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders: Making the Team 3." Who knew that seeing women vie for a spot on the most famous cheerleading squad would be so entertaining? I haven't been able to watch it lately due to Moco's football schedule. Now that football season is over...I might have time a few nights a week to watch some regular T.V. Yay!

Not a whole lot has been going on as of late. As mentioned before, finishing up Moco's first season of football. He had a lot of fun and it's something I know he will miss. I know I miss the 3 nights a weeks of 2 hour breaks that I had while he was at practice. Yet, I think I will enjoy some freetime with him as we get ready for the holidays. (Side note: I had to re-type "holiday" over and over again because I am now programmed to type it "h-o-l-l-i-d-a-y." Why? Well, that's how Ms. Lindsay spells her last name. heh.)

For the past 5 months, I've been training to run a race. Now the San Antonio's Rock 'n' Roll Half-Marathon is next weekend! I'm super excited. I'm even more excited that my very best friend in the whole wide world, Moe, might make it down to see me race. Nothing is set in stone just yet, but there's a possibility. I was there when she ran the Dallas White Rock Half-Marathon last year. She and her hubby are my inspiration for beginning to run in the first place. So I'm hoping I do them proud and make it happen! :) I'll keep you posted on how it goes. Moe's already given me a time to beat. ;)

Signing off for now...